等待雨后彩虹

很累

这是我放弃学业，接手生意的第三个月了。。

这三个月里，我努力地让自己学会承担，

但这所有的一切，对只是21岁的我，

似乎有点沉重。

正努力学习中，

先把帐目学好，再去了解铁料，五金是我目前的计划。

我不敢说自己没有恨任何人，因为我并不伟大。

但我真正恨的，只有一位。

我恨她，

因为她的无情，因为她的反复无常

我赔上了我的未来，我的梦。

虽然我懂她跟我们并没有任何关系，

她有权利决定自己的人生，

但是说好了却出尔反尔，

这难道对了吗？

我有时会想知道，

当初在她做这个决定时，有没有想过她的决定会影响到别人？

虽然我跟她没有任何关系，

但毕竟也相处了整十年了，不是吗?

现在的她，对我而言，

她只是一位凶手，刽子手。

她间接地杀了我的梦，我原本所应该拥有的未来。

在这三个月里，有一个人给了我短暂的一场梦。

但现在，似乎到了梦醒时分。

我不怪你，

但我希望不要再有第二次，

在你还没有真正的下好决定之前，

请你别许下任何承诺，

你不懂，希望毁灭的时候对别人所造成的伤害。。

你许诺，你给我希望，

但最后你真正给我的就只有第二度的伤害，

你明白我的感受吗？

不想变得情绪化，

但是有时我真的觉得很累。。

听见别人自以为是的判断，

看着别人的毕业照等等，

我不可能没有任何感觉。

有时候，我真的很想就放弃算了，

但是我不能，

我的大脑不允许我自私任性。

雨后，希望真的会有彩虹。

 

加油！ 

 

 

好不容易有假期，当然是趁这个机会跟他去玩玩啦。。

而这一次的目的地就是我最最最爱的地方----

金马伦高原！！

星期六放工准备好后我们便出发了，

因为要争取时间，

老实说，我们时时刻刻都在跟时间抢时间，

因为能够相处的时间真的不多。。^^

在第二天，我们就先去帮我的宝贝洗白白先，

因为前天晚上中了很多“头奖”

n嗯。。。。老实说，他还比我更疼我的车

那些人真的是很慢，

不过算了吧，慢工出细货，我们就等咯。。。

在等的时候，

他就变成我的模特儿了！！　哈哈～

 他讲他很丑，

哎呀，我也没有好到哪里去咯。。　=w=

我们的情侣戒^^

金马伦真的很不错，

没有繁忙的步伐，逼死人的气息，热死人的天气

w我真的爱死它了！！

z在那里，我不用赶上赶下，

可以用自己最舒服的步调去生活。

在晚上，我为他准备了小小惊喜

s虽然没什么创意，

但是我弄到也很累的咯，哈哈。。。

因为真的很想为他做些什么的，

他真的对我很好。。

 hope you like it~ <3

他买了一只猪给我哦。。

或许是嫌我在车上太吵了，

所以买给我，要我静静睡觉。。ｈａｈｈａ。。

谢谢你的体贴。。

我们都是虎姑婆！！

i love you~

 

 

sorry for being late

sorry for being late~

but here is my babe~~

little purple!!! <3

update again~

thanks for your reply

appreciate-ing >///<

hahaha~

yaya... now let him done his assignment 1st

after he done then keep kacau him

hahha...

huhuhu... i don't have the chance to become teacher dy lu..

because the clerk absent today

in our opinion, 

she can't suit herself to this jobs, maybe

so.. everything become same now..

although there are a lot of jobs every day,

but i became FAT  already!!!!

arrrggghhhhh!!

this really make me so headache =(

so, i'm diet-ing now, hhaah..

recently, my sis keep teach me do exercise at nite

hahah...

perhaps i can reduce my size.. =.='''

hahhaha...

prays for me ya ^^

erm... my result ok lu..

satisfy about it..

3.8, quite pretty number,

bt it suits u more... 

38, hahha... =p

i think i will post the photo by tomorrow~

stay tuned... ♥

*stay happy*

WE CAN DO IT!!! ^^ 

update

Another same daily life for me today..

nothing special

except i become a "small teacher" today..

hahha...

my dad hire a new malay clerk already,

but she still new,

so there are a lots of things that she haven't know yet..

i have to teach her all of that..

i'm not sure that i can do it well

because i'm not pro,

i still have a lots of things that i don't know in this business..

i ask myself, 

what can i teach her since i just know half2 oly

but this is my responsibility,

i have to teach also in the end..

hope that i can be a good "teacher"

hopefully...

tell you wat,

tat elton bully me again arr!!

he keep busy busy busy and never gv bit time for me..

u say he bad or not?? issshhhh...

but i know he busy doing his assignment,

can't really blame him too lar...

haha...

just sometimes will feel gt bit lonely

and dunno who i can talk with when i need someone to share..

but it's ok ^^

time flies...

still got few more week then u all finish your 3rd semester dy wor..

haha... how your feel?

oh ya, u also never tell me how your result last sem tim..

but no need ask i also can know your result dy..

believe u ♥

everytime u just scan it then u can go exam dy...

seriously, i really admire you de lor.. haha

add oil ^^

hahaha.. k lar, i want sleep already lu...

but i think the nite is still young for u 

so i'm not planning to say good night to you, haha.. =p

*stay happy*

don't worry about me ^^

really have a long time that i had dissapear from here?

hurmm? hah... 

i know it, but i really don't have much time to blogging..

now i know wrong dy,

will try my best

keep update my news here...

because i know,

someone is worry about me,

perhapss? haha...

well.. 

i'm still ok here, no worries...

but i think i seem like a robot more than human now..

haha.. coz i keep doing the same things everyday.

honestly, i'm not really like it

this type of life =.='''

but this is my choice

i will suffer through it no matter how!!

 

after stop my studies and working here,

i really realize how happy when i'm still a student

at least i can arrange my time by myself

i can go any place if i wan

sometimes i do have a feeling that i'm selling my freedom

~~sometimes~  *don't worry*

but i think this is my fate

so, i'm trying to accept it.

oh ya, tell u a good newsss!!

haha.. i got my car already!!

altot the car that i get not the car that i order due to some problem..

but i like it too ^^

next time i will show my purple car's photo here

haha.. cant take photo now because "she" really very dirty now

there are a construction program running opposite my home

so, the dustssssssss keep kiss my car

i just wash it around 2pm, 

but it become dirty again now.

next monday i gt holiday due to pahang agong bday,

so i will go cameron highland

walk around and release stressssss, haha...

it recall me that time we go bukit ekspo early in the morning

to release our stress for the koc assignment, hahah..

u also must take k at there...

i know it's exam week for u now, so add oil ya ^^

 

*stay happy*

IU & Seulong - Nagging

a nice song really

the lyrics are so truly and meaningful

IU & Seulong..

Perhaps i will start notice about them.. 

heheh <3